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Valentine's Day

I keep telling people that I am not romantic, but for those who know me, know full well I write poetry and I love the works of all the Romantics and of course Shakespeare.  So deep down I suppose I am a romantic at heart.  But what better way to spend Valentine's Day but getting all hot and sweaty at a

Europe

gig.  Well they certainly got my heart racing.  I was in heaven.  After 22 years since "The Final Countdown" came out and graced us, they still know how to keep their fans smiling, screaming and singing.  And I don't mean by their gyrating hips (well only a little bit - GOD DAMN!)

If that wasn't enough, I got to work the next day with hardly any voice, as hoarse as can be, and at around 5pm 12 velvet look red roses arrived for me.  So to the person that sent them to me, I know who you are, you know who you are, I truly thank you.  They are truly beautiful and of course my favourite.

Bad Dreams

Why is it that when you have a bloody good weekend it is spoilt by the thought that you have to go to work again or by the fact someone is haunting you in your dreams.

I wouldn't mind if he was being nice to me, but all it is, is his face appearing out of nowhere and just staring at me, coldly.  And why is it that when you want to wake up from bad dreams you never can but you always wake up at a crucial point in a nice dream?

New Years Resolution

First I would like to wish you all a very Happy New Year, and may 2007 be a good one for you all!

I don't normally make New Years Resolutions as I never tend to keep them anyway.  But all I aim to do and keep is to stay happy and be more confident in myself.  What are your Resolutions for 2007?

Looking Back

Looking back at what I have achieved, gone through during the last year, doesn't look as if I did anything to the max if that makes sense.  I started the year out single but nothing new there that is just part of nature but I had high hopes of achieving something more for myself.  I knew it was going to be a tough one, blimey I was reaching 30 years of age.  I think I can honestly say I did gig out to the max with the lovely Pix and if we didn't it was only because there was not that many gigs to choose from that we personally like.  I had three holidays, two of which were to Spain, one was with my parents where believe it or not I entered an adult talent contest and I won - LOL.  Don't worry if you are laughing I am laughing myself.

May came and I was loosing one of my closest friends to Spain for good, She had finally had enough of England, at least I knew where I would be going on holidays.  It was hard taking her to the airport to say "see you later".  Then if that wasn't depressing enough my 30th finally arrived.  I was looking forward to it at first then it arrived and I was like Hell on Earth.  I did treat myself to a nice litte car though.  I thought it was about time, I mean I have two jobs so I might as well treat myself.  Next step I think is my own home, I know, I have to keep dreaming on that one!

I hit an all time low, why this time, another friend had told me that she is leaving England for good, to the other side of the World.  New Zealand, at least she said I can visit when I like, but I'm not sure about the flight, I'm not a good flyer as it is, I have to be pulled on to the plane to fly to Spain.

I started concetrating more on my writing (which was why I had gone quiet on here) and met this guy through work who had published his life story.  It was very emotional but he helped me to get to grips with my writing.  Thanks for that K.

Then something positive happened, I was asked to make a film, which I must say I was very nervous but I have had a ball doing so.  The film will be finished by the end of January and we will be doing a few screenings.  And to top it all I met my Monster, have fallen head over heels in love.  It couldn't have come at a better time.  He has asked me to move in with him but I still haven't given him the answer yet.  I think he knows what will happen, I just have to be ready in myself and with myself.

All I can say now is roll on 2007!

Cradle of Filth

WOW!  As previously mentioned, my other half was taking me to see Cradle of Filth at Astoria before they close the excellent venue down.  He was quite amazed to see the see of black make up and that was just from the guys.  Thank god it wasn't raining this time like when we went to see WASP but it was so cold and having to queue practically around the other side of Oxford Street was no fun.  The funny thing was the conversations that you could over hear.  Where do some of these people come from.  Well when we eventually got in there, I wasn't allowed to go anywhere near the front after what happened last time - lol.  Well when Mr Filth came on to the stage I was slightly shocked.  He is so small it is unbelievable but oh what a voice.  His voice certainly raised the roof, even when he just spoke it was just so husky, deep and very sexy.  There was certainly a lot of moshing going on but I was a good girl and kept my hands to myself - Damn!!!

Crimbo

Well it's only approximately 36 hours till Santa has been and gone.  When looking at the letter I sent him asking for snow, it certainly does look possible.  It is absolutely freezing and I feel like my eye lashes have just gone all stiff.  OK so I am getting all soppy and romantic but I am allowed to at this time of year.  What have you all asked Santa for?

Amazed

The words to Lonestar's hit Amazed keeps playing in my head, the words are so lovely I thought I would share them all with you.

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Chorus

Solo

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

Dear Santa

I know it is a little late to be writing but there is something I would like. 

In all fairness, I think I have had my Christmas present, I must have been a good girl, and I thank you profusely for my gift.

But there is a little something I would like for Christmas, could you please make it snow on Christmas Eve so when I wake up on Christmas morning with my present the scene is already set for the perfect, romantic white Christmas.  I thank you and wait in anticipation.

Kind regards

S xxx

PS, I wish you and Mrs Claus a very Merry Christmas.

I'm Just A Groupie...

.....but I don't sleep with the band members I just love the music.

It has started again!  By this I mean myself and the lovely Pix have been hitting the gigs again, slowly building up our nights out again.  I started it by going to see the Goo Goo Dolls and getting very close to the lovely Johnny Rzenik, and I must say his eyes can melt a thousand girls hearts in a second.  I followed this up the following night by seeing the fantastic Meatloaf (no laughing he is fantastic) at the Royal Albert Hall, I went with my mum and this was simply breath-taking.  I know, slightly soft so thought I would step the pace up a little bit, so me and Pix went to see Roadstar at the Mean Fiddler, and as always they gave a blinding show, unfortunately the headliners were somewhat not getting our approval so we walked out of the gig nice and early to walk straight into the members of Roadstar.  Now this was more like it, we got to meet the guys and yes like a right groupie that I am had my picture taken with 3 of the guys including Chris Rivers the drummer, (yes I have a thing for drummers).

Ok so that wasn't enought, and booked tickets to see W.A.S.P. at the London Astoria as a surprise for my other half.  Have to make the most of it as they will be closing the venue down next year which is a god damn shame.  W.A.S.P. was absolutely amazing and I have to admit I did get a bit of concert rage.  I shocked my other half as I yanked this girls ponytail who thought moshing was a good idea.  She soon stopped moshing after that little incident.  Only thing was where my better half was trying to protect me from getting hurt it looked like he was the one that actually yanked her hair.  We both couldn't stop laughing.

A few days later, I am waiting outside the Forum in Kentish Town, waiting for Pix and J, to go in and see Thunder.  I can't help it, Ben Matthews does something to me as poor Pix knows, everytime we go to see them, it's "Pix, I'm in love".  Even better they played my song again, and yes I screamed like a little girl and my eyes filled with tears.  The eye contact was non stop, it was a shame it had to end! 

Whats next on the concert/gig front, well my better half is taking me to see Cradle of Filth in December and no laughing now or jokes about they only have one song, the fantastic Europe are on tour again in February and funny enough it is on Valentine's Day.  It would be rude not to. 

An Image to Portray

According to the Little Book of Goths by Dan Vice, I am a Tradgoth, Romantic, Vampire, Fetish, Pagan, Metal Goth.  Just to elaborate a little more, Tradgoths / Romantic goths tend to veer towards classical gothic, with Edwardian and Victorian style clothing - This is true, I can be seen wearing the classical clothing at some point.

Vampire goths find vampires cool and sexy - This is so true, if there is something sexy it is someone sinking their teeth into your neck - GOD DAMN!

Fetish goth, likes leather, PVC and chains - Hell yes, bring it on!

Pagan goth, is into Wicca, The Occult and Celtic Religions - Absolutely, I do find it extremely fascinating and most people who do know me do call me a witch.

Metalhead - wears black combats, heavy boots, often found in a pub with a pint in one had and head banging - almost true, you would never find me with a pint in my hand unless it is one I just bought for someone else.

Some would say that due to me wearing my short skirts (some would call belts) that I would fall under the category of Slut goth, the only thing that stops me on this one is the crowd surfing in the mosh pit.  OK be honest now, you know I can take it, but what is your opinion of my image???